Today is my third day of the lovely lupron shot. Just kidding it really has not been too bad. No side effects yet but I am sure they are coming. I have had a tougher time with my anxiety than I have had with actually taking the shots. Taking medicines always make me nervous. I was laying in bed the other night, wondering to myself why me??? I think that is something that everyone wonders while going through infertility. I truly think that I am going through this to make me get over my fears. 1) I am scared to have blood drawn because there could be something wrong with me- I have had to had blood drawn now many many many times 2) I hate to have surgery because I am always scared I will not wake up after being put to sleep- I have had my first surgery and I got through it. 3) I hate taking medicine because of the side effects- I have taken many medicines now through my IUIs and now IVF, every one of them is making me face my fears head on. So through this hard journey of infertility I have had to face most of my fears. Have I had anxiety attacks? Yes! but I have gotten through them. Have I been scared to death on many ocassions? Yes! but again I had to be strong enough to get through them. I have learned that I am much stronger than I thought I was. So as long and hard as this journey is I am getting through it one day at a time!
Right now I am just counting down the days to be off the birth control pills. Thank God Saturday is my last day of the horrible little white pills. They have had three side effects 1) starving all the time which has not been good for weight watchers 2) I never have pimples and now I have a lot of little pimples 3) I have horrible dry mouth (My mouth is like the Sahara Desert every afternoon) this has been above and beyond the worst side effect!
I just keep telling myself this will all be worth it in the end!!!
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It will be worth it in the end! Way to look at this positive!! You ARE a VERY strong woman, never forget that!!!
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