Wishing On a Star

I am feeling much better this week. Since starting the stim shots my mood has been much better. I am feeling more and more back to my normal everyday. I can also tell that the stim shots are beginning to work because my ovaries are tender. Which is a very familar feeling because of taking clomid during my IUIs. I have read everywhere that Lupron is the devil and I have to say that I agree! I was very fortunate not to have to many headaches and hot flashes. But it did make me quite hateful. Even though I am still on a small dose of Lupron it is not having much effect on me anymore.
I went to therapy yesterday, which for those of you who don't know I go for my anxiety. I was talking to her about what I have talked about on here before that going through this has made me face all of my fears. Honestly, I hate that I have to go through all this but I think that it is good that I am facing my fears. The more I talked about it with her the more I know that I can get through this. I started talking about the many different things that are going on in my life and how things are really lining up. She said that it seems like the stars are going to align this time. So here I am truly hoping that the stars are aligning.
Throughout this process I have tried to be positive but I hate to get my hopes up again.Since I got pregnant on my own, I truly thought that the IUIs would work. But as we all know they didn't. I keep telling myself that with the IUIs I only had a 12% chance of it working the first time and then your chances go down from there. With IVF we have 75% chance of it working. I truly hope I am one of those 75%. I can't imagine being part of the 25%. Even though I have prepared myself to be one of those 25% people. I am grateful that we have the means to do IVF. I am grateful that we have the means to adopt if it comes down to that. So right now I am staying positive. I know that no matter what I will be a mommy!
Oh one other thing I am trying my hardest to kick caffeine. This is way harder than shots or anything else. I truly love my Diet Coke and sweet tea. I look forward to them through out my day. I have been drinking Coke forever so when I don't have it I get a horrible headache. I am cutting down from 4 a day to 1. So wish me luck :)